A Force From The Past

Nostalgia. Those fond memories from the bygone past.

So often fondness and meaning is found in them.

Might sound ridiculous to some, but I miss high school life.

Ok, A-Levels is definitely than SPM. But going to school or college is more than just the academics. It's an entire lifestyle and environment. And I prefer the high school life compared to college life. I just wish I could be doing A-Levels at Seafield. Who cares about the necessity to wear school uniforms in high school? I admit that there are flaws in the school rules and some rules are unnecessary to begin with. But the thing is, the value of the togetherness and the sense of a stronger community found in high school life surpasses the other imperfections.

In college, people are more individualistic. The communitarian atmosphere, settings and environment hardly exist. It is lonelier in college. Bad social politics abound. Forget about having a friend to listen to your problems, you can hardly find the people and opportunity to simply hang out, crack some jokes and have an enjoyable time together doing random stuff as it always happened in high school.

As for me, the situation is worse. Being an introvert and with my differences from a social standpoint, it's even harder to adapt to the new lifestyle, schedule and environment. Sometimes I feel like I'm in an alien world. I wouldn't what others would say, but college ain't that fun for me.

I miss high school.

I love going back to high school for visits or any other activities or events.

In high school, I did have bad experiences. But now, high school is just so much more comfortable. With many more friends and familiar faces back there, people would come up and say hi, and have a chat. People are friendlier there. Feels much more homely. There's much more of a community there with tighter bonds between individuals. Walking down the corridors, the fondness of the past return*. I love it.

I guess that in college things just change. People and matters change. Nothing is certain anymore. Everything just keeps moving so fast. We just need some silence, some rest before carrying on our paths. I just hope that I, and everyone else, would not loose ourselves in the tides of life. Hopefully, we will not be swept away by the waves and loose ourselves. We have to be the person that we are, and in this rat race world, the worldly ambitions often achieve the opposite. I hope people realise this fact. I hope that education, like the one my peers and I are receiving in college now, will serve to make us better at being who we are, and not to sweep us away in the rat race. Education must not ony care for the intellect by nurturing it with knowledge, but rather, education has to care for the entire human person that goes beyond knowledge and intellect.

Imagine, a few years down the road, we'll be missing college like how I'm missing high school now.

I know that this will happen. We know that this will happen. But what are we to do?




*Sometimes, I just wish that we could revisit the past that we had in the same school together. I wish that we could 'time travel' as you termed it, in the place where we spent many years growing up while our friendship was nurtured. I wish we could go back to the past together just for a few instance at the school where we studied for so many years. Yes, this is directed to you. You know who you are. You might not be reading this now, but I just wanted to write it down.